There are so many things I want to say. So many things I want to write about. All day long, my brain is on. When I finally get to sit down and think and write, my brain has either checked out for the night or it's throwing things like a one direction fans who want an autograph and I can't get away. It's like a fight of thoughts. It's worse when it won't work. Then, I try and start a thought fight, but all my thoughts are suddenly pacifists. All I'll remember is a couple words. Lazy eyes? What the hell was I thinking about lazy eyes for? Back to blank. And sometimes, believe it it not, my thoughts are too intense, too deep, too dark, that I'm not real sure I WANT to write down. That could be trouble.
Anyway, my point is, I really want to write, at times when I couldn't possibly sit down and write. Give me the opportunity to sit down and write? I can't think of anything to say. The solution to my problem, is just to have someone follow me around all day and write down every word I say. Then I scare the shit out of myself when I read it. I could probably cut out the human contact part of it, and just strap a tape recorder to the dogs collar. She's always following me around. Which is actually pretty damn annoying. Seeing the shadow of her paws from underneath the bathroom door is pretty annoying. Tripping over her because I moved two feet and turned back around. Yeah. The dog would capture it all. Problem is, I'd have to think out loud. Talk, when there are no other people around. Which is talking to myself. And I would look like a fucking lunatic, sitting on my couch having a full conversation with air. But I'd actually be talking to my dog. Which is way fucking worse than just talking to myself. She hasn't even been trained to roll over OR transcribe a conversation and type at 150 words a minute. Bad plan.
